Let the true journey begin....

Here I am thinking that I had at least a week left with my husband when I come to find out just yesterday that I have less than that.  *sigh* Welp.  What can you do?   I decided that I'd stay in Texas, in our lil home till he comes home.  Things might change but for now this is what I want to do lol.  I might be a lil crazy.  But it makes sense. We shall see!!  I mean, I rather keep my job and focus on furnishing  and decorating our home.  I've only been waiting to do this for almost a year!  Then college of course and staying in the loop of things here on base and sooo much more.  I beleive in my strength.  First deployment or not.

But on another note, we went to Oregon to visit family and friends for about 10 days. That was nice and relaxing. My anixety only acted up on the plane ride and the first 3 days in Oregon. Haha did I ever mention that I officially HATE plane rides?  Yea, I'm gonna avoid them as much as possible. If thats even possible in this life LOL.  Let me show you how green Oregon truly is:
                               

Gorgous right?  I literally forgot the visual image of my words when I told everybody just how green that state is.  We flew in and it was surreal.  The air was amazingly fresh.  God, how I missed that. But I know that I would come to hate that state as soon as winter hit. Lol rain rain go away!!

Then came the visiting of friends and family. May I mention something a little immature: Although we all have our own lifes and values; for a day it'd be nice for people to just SHUT UP and let loose. Stop over thinking and for the life of me...please just stop thinking about themselves for a day?  Okay, now that is said. the visiting was GREAT. I was so happy to see my family and hubby's. Meeting the new babies that we missed out on.  More pics please!!!

Me and my best friends daughter aka my beautiful niece!! She is now 7 months old. 

Hubby and his baby cousin who he just met and is now a year old and the cutest thing EVER!!

Then there was my baby brother whom I havent seen since he was about 2 months old and is now a year old. You miss so much with family when you move. Wish I would've taken a ton more pictures but silly me forgot our camera. Lol Although I dont want to miss anymore growth of people and their children..thier lifes. I gotta grow mine as well. It was really nice seeing family and friends. Although NOTHING has really changed. Not even a little bit besides the kiddos growing up.  I did. It was weird being home again. Things were the exact same but it didn't feel the same. I couldn't see myself living in my hometown. Or my hubby's hometown. Ever. But with that being said i did miss everyone and it was a great visit. 

I dont know to much about the working of things right now. I just want to finish up my goals and pray for my hubby's safe return and my sanity. lol. my emotions are taking a toll on me already and he isn't even gone yet. So I better get off this computer and love on him. 

TTFN<3 

                                                                                                                             

Catch up.

So life has been busy like no other.  I quit my YMCA job to work as a nanny. Considering Hubby is leaving next month. The army changed the date. So instead of september he's leaving in August.  All in all, the nanny job is more personal, less stressful, and is helping a lot with finances and such.  We'll be going home to Oregon at the end of this month...yaaaaay! Haha.  Then I will be moving back home at least a month or so after he deploys.  That little fact is making my stomach turn.  Why must he go?  His orders read "should not exceed 455 days" so possibly 15 months??  This deployment is ALREADY an inconvience.  I would love to keep my husband if you dont mind.  But ey,  the contract and the chioce is on him/us so who can complain?  Being without him and moving back home right when I get comfy here is starting up my anxiety. Why do I feel this way? Its home after all. Where I lived for 18 years of my life. Where my friends and family are. Where my roots will always be. So why the fear of adjustment?....ahhh thats what it is after all. Fear of re adjusting right after I just got adjusted here then having to move back when he gets back. More moving and readjusting. Ugh I hope I can handle it mentally. Ha.

I'm gonna miss my husband. A lot. Like I'm gonna be aching when he leaves for days.  *sigh*  not looking forward to the emotional stress of it all. Not to mention all the things we STILL have to do here before he leaves. MAKE THE TIME STOP!!!!!!!

Well heres some pictures anyways.  I'll write more, I promise. Hehe

Being dorks. As always <3

And heres My Busterrr

Well, TTFN =P

Pause!!

I wish time would just stop.  Just for a tiny bit.  Let my husband come home, then stop the clock. Ha.

But we all know that is wishful thinking on my part. But he is coming home in a little over a week! I'm excited.  A little disapointed that i wasn't able to get our finances situated and now I gotta stress over trying to come home for his leave time. But hey..."everything will be okay in the end, if its not okay, its not the end."

I try to live by that as much as possible. My job is going pretty good. It adds a little more stress, but whatever.  I enjoy it. I work with kiddos.  Which is always interesting! Lol I've been working there for a little over a month now so I got the hang of things.

Annnnd I died my hair.  Haha, I was so sick of my roots. Gross. Lol so I touched them up and I'm very pleased.

So there it is!!

Welp, I gotta go back to counting down the days that the hubby comes home and not stress. TTFN=)

Oh boy....

He's been gone for almost a month.  I've been trying to keep myself busy and my stress level down.  Not as easy as it looks folks! Who would've guessed that being an adult, married and throwing in the military makes your head spin.  Boy oh boy...

I'm excited for him to come home.  Really, I miss my partner. I cant whine and brainstorm without him! Lol.
Everything has me stressed out lately.  Everything. And its even getting him stressed.  Which I cant have.
I have tons of pictures from April to now.  But I got so much on my mind and so much to do around the house that its not even funny.

TTFN =)

Life marches on!

Its been a while! I started blogging once every night or so and now its maybe once a month!
Well, not a whole lot has been missed.  My birthday was the first saturday of this month and I got a part time job!  Our finances have really been kicking our butts.  So me landing a job happened just in time :)
Hubby turns 20 on Monday and unfortunatly I cant cook that big 'ol dinner. But i WILL be baking an awesome cake. Then he wants to go to see Iron man on Friday. I'm exicted. A night out with my babe<3

He is going on his one month training in California in about 2 weeks. Tell me time doesn't fly!!

Anyway, I will be blogging more tomorrow and some pics to post :)

TTFN!!

Time goes on..

Hubbys deployment and "hard core" training is coming up.   I'm a little nervous, Finally feeling settled and motivated to get my goals done and then i take a look at the calendar and realize, its not far away.  I dont know the feelings that you go through when your coming upon your first deployment, but I'm not feeling much pressure, yet.  Of course, its about 6 months away (give or take a couple weeks)  so I'm sure it'll hit me.  If I havent mentioned it before, I plan on moving with my mother in law.  Mostly because I want to be in Oregon where my roots are and most of my loved ones remain.  We dont have children or a ton of stuff so the  decision to move back home wasn't very hard for the Hubs and I to come upon.  Then again, the mommy in law is facing some changes as well.  Either way, I'm gonna be on the West coast.

I'll get use to living on my absolute own when he's away, but for 12+ months, I think  I can safely say that I'm totally comfortable being with my family and friends.  At least for the first go around Haha. 

In other News...my birthday is 4 days away! Woot! lol.  I'm hoping Hubby is here for his 20th birthday.  He might be training though, who knows.  I was thinking I'd bake him a cake, bring his buddy's over, hang out and eat a big dinner and some yummy cake and ice cream.   Then go to a movie or just send him and his friends to a freaken Arcade or somewhere they can have fun OUT of this house LOL.  My idea might sound cheesy, but spare me....I'm only brain storming!  I know for sure I'm gonna bake him a cake though ;)

Well, I better be gettin' to bed. 

TTFN<3

Buster.

Gah! I've been stressing out a lot.  Never owned a dog in my life so this is deffinitly a learning experience.  They're not like hamsters or birds where you have to just keep thier cage clean and make sure they have water and food.  He went to his first Vet appt when mother and brother in law were down (March 10th to be exact)  he got his first vaccinations for parvo and such, but before that for like a week he was dragging his butt on the ground..I had no idea what that meant until he started pooping worms! And they were round worms, so they were long! Ewww! Lol So he got dewormed as well and hes been doing FANTASTIC since then....up until 2 nights ago. (March 16th)  All morning and afternoon he was his normal playful self, but when 5pm rolled around he just started yelping in pain.  For no reason it seemed.  I was scared, so I got on facebook and my other favorite informational site "babygaga" and I was told to either give him puppy meds or take him into the after hours vet.  The first thing that came to anybody's mind was the risk of him having parvo..wich didn't make any sense.  He was eating ok and he wanted to play, he just looked and sounded like he was in pain.  I was hoping to get him into the vet yesterday, but Buster was doing really good by then.  He wasn't yelping, he was eating perfectly well and was a little more playful then the day before. So, I decided that since he has an appt for the 2nd round of vaccinations on saturday (the 20th) at 11 am that we could just wait.  Today hes back to his normal self, besides acting nervous off and on.  But I'm told that a chihuahua trait so....yea.  I figure the yelping in pain was or is growing pains, or he pulled a muscle.  Whatever it is I will for sure find out in 2 days. For now, he's perfectly fine.

Oh...and his cute floppy ears are no more.  He's a true chihuahua now :(

Now

Then

:( I'm gonna miss them haha

Well, I gotta start studying for my permit/license.  This sitting in the house thing has to stop, I have gained some weight from it! AHHH! Lmao, I memorized the Oregon driving manual...now I gotta study the TEXAS manual.  Smart me haha

TTFN!