Ugh. Its that kind of day.

UGH. Yes, thats all I got. Its been a little over a month since Hubby left.  Some days suck but for the most part its better then I thought. I decided to stay here in TX instead of going back home. Not very many people were happy about it. But why would I quit my job and start over more than I have to?

Its days like this where I want to be home. It just sucks sometimes. I look at the friends I have made here and they're all leaving when hubby gets back, moving away like military families do. Then I'm missing out on my family and friends lives as well back home. It gets deppressing when I sit and think about it.  I go to sleep alone, I come home to be alone, I dont cook anymore because I'm alone. Depressing huh?  Its okay, its just one of those days. Usually I'm happy and just going on 'till the hubby comes home again. Getting things done and holding my head up. But today....today isn't good. I miss being home. My best friend of 10 years mom passed away today and I cant be there to hold her hand through it. Its bad enough I miss out on all the little ones lives and more. But really?  Will I even be able to make it to the memorial?
"It must be hard being away from close friends like that" Guess what? Everything is hard. Maybe its the first timers struggle but being away from EVERYBODY uncluding the reason you're here while hes fighting or reestablishing for this country we call the land of the free, just..sucks. Haha, but you know? I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm a very thankful human being and I'm not lounging around depressed. If it wasnt for friends or having a job I would not be in this state. Honestly. I love my friends here. They keep me strong because they know what its like. I think I'm adjusting pretty well. I get to talk to hubby more than I thought i was and that makes everything better.

Okay, enough of the sad pity me rambling.  I am gonna blog a lot more and take lots of pictures more often. I'm excited to start college and more. I'm excited to set up my home to make it a HOME. Right now it looks like a bachelors pad haha. By the end of the day, I'm happy I stayed here. Despite the bugs :P