stress list.

Yes. I know, its been a very long while. Want an update? If the answers no...to bad!
So we're about 4 months into the deployment and its going very well. For the most part.  We got the general month of when the hubby comes home. Its not to far away and the home stretch is going to be incredibly short which makes me all bubbely inside as you can imagine :p.  Distractions are key. Right now the distraction is getting my home set up..which I've been working in since he left. Almost finished and so far its looking pretty fabulous!! Here are some pictures:

Our living room when we FIRST moved in. I dont have pictures of the granny couch that WAS in there (But I do thank D's old sargent for giving it to us, that was generous of them)   :

And now

                                                         And then my kitchen.

And now

                                  and last, my bedroom. When we first moved in, No bed, nothing.

                                                                      And now

Thats about it for now! Managed to not spend over $1,000. Which we all know is nice because we arent money bags here. All I gotta do now paint my kitchen table and chairs and hang up some things. But enough about my boring progression which I owe a lot of thanks to the Pilley family. Since they handle my paycheck and are the ones who sold me most of the things that are now taking residence in my rooms :) (yes, nice USED things are just as good as overpriced brand new things Haha) 

A lot has happened in the past 4 months on my neck of the woods. Me and my neighbor randomly got some new pets....no cost included!! Now usually I cant argue with free but when rats deicide to take residence in your home things gets complicated.   It was pretty bad. Rat poop all over the place, I had to lock up all of my food in my fridge and microwave. They managed to come through my neighbors toilet. I had pest control come over and they laid STICKY traps out. At first none of this was to stressful.  Until one of the sticky traps caught two rats and they were hitting under my fridge causing it to rattle, freaking my dog and myself out. Realizing the rat was trying to bit his tail off and took off outside when my neighbors husband came over to help me dispose of it...yea never using those again.

Heres some pictures:

Arent they cute?  Dont be fooled by their cuteness. They're killers and they are annoying. Now, almost 2 months later they are still making incredibly loud noises in my walls. So loud that it wakes me up. Housing finally decided to move me and my neighbor. I'm not to excited to move and re adjust and get things organized on top of everything else. But hey..why not add to the stress list? In the end though, I rather move than die from some incurable disease that these suckers carry.  Housing is most likely going to try to sway us. I liked to see them deal with this on a daily basis. No swaying here since there isn't much they can do unless they bomb our houses, tear down the walls, then re build them. I'm not going to live in a Hotel forever and pay for storage and all that. I dont know, its all to complicated. But hopefully this will all end soon.

So besides that I have been working and trying to limit my emotional days. Which really suck.  What I got to look forward to?

1) Getting my license. Why cant things be easy? My neighbor/close friend took my to get my test done. yea umm not happening, We were for 3 hours for me to get processed than found out all the slots for that day were taken up. So we went to another dmv, after calling them to make sure they test, and then got told to that they dont test. Turns out we have to go to the original dmv 2 hours before they open. Well..lets hope I pass! Otehrwise life is going to suck.

2)Job searching. The family I work for is PCS'ing in Feb. There for, I'm jobless!

3) Got to get car updated. Yea,  thats not looking to good.

TTFN :)

To say the least Life is stressful. Oh well, its my life and I'll manage. I better get off though. I will keep on keeping on =P

RIP baby Gecko.

Yes, you heard right.  I murdered a baby Gecko today. I took up the honor of sweeping my neighbors house and I accidentally stepped on the tiny creature. He looked at me and opened his mouth wide. We had a funeral service for him. Given, it was mostly for the 6 year old who witnessed this horrendous act, but all in all...RIP poor baby Gecko.

TTFN <3

Ugh. Its that kind of day.

UGH. Yes, thats all I got. Its been a little over a month since Hubby left.  Some days suck but for the most part its better then I thought. I decided to stay here in TX instead of going back home. Not very many people were happy about it. But why would I quit my job and start over more than I have to?

Its days like this where I want to be home. It just sucks sometimes. I look at the friends I have made here and they're all leaving when hubby gets back, moving away like military families do. Then I'm missing out on my family and friends lives as well back home. It gets deppressing when I sit and think about it.  I go to sleep alone, I come home to be alone, I dont cook anymore because I'm alone. Depressing huh?  Its okay, its just one of those days. Usually I'm happy and just going on 'till the hubby comes home again. Getting things done and holding my head up. But today....today isn't good. I miss being home. My best friend of 10 years mom passed away today and I cant be there to hold her hand through it. Its bad enough I miss out on all the little ones lives and more. But really?  Will I even be able to make it to the memorial?
"It must be hard being away from close friends like that" Guess what? Everything is hard. Maybe its the first timers struggle but being away from EVERYBODY uncluding the reason you're here while hes fighting or reestablishing for this country we call the land of the free, just..sucks. Haha, but you know? I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm a very thankful human being and I'm not lounging around depressed. If it wasnt for friends or having a job I would not be in this state. Honestly. I love my friends here. They keep me strong because they know what its like. I think I'm adjusting pretty well. I get to talk to hubby more than I thought i was and that makes everything better.

Okay, enough of the sad pity me rambling.  I am gonna blog a lot more and take lots of pictures more often. I'm excited to start college and more. I'm excited to set up my home to make it a HOME. Right now it looks like a bachelors pad haha. By the end of the day, I'm happy I stayed here. Despite the bugs :P

Let the true journey begin....

Here I am thinking that I had at least a week left with my husband when I come to find out just yesterday that I have less than that.  *sigh* Welp.  What can you do?   I decided that I'd stay in Texas, in our lil home till he comes home.  Things might change but for now this is what I want to do lol.  I might be a lil crazy.  But it makes sense. We shall see!!  I mean, I rather keep my job and focus on furnishing  and decorating our home.  I've only been waiting to do this for almost a year!  Then college of course and staying in the loop of things here on base and sooo much more.  I beleive in my strength.  First deployment or not.

But on another note, we went to Oregon to visit family and friends for about 10 days. That was nice and relaxing. My anixety only acted up on the plane ride and the first 3 days in Oregon. Haha did I ever mention that I officially HATE plane rides?  Yea, I'm gonna avoid them as much as possible. If thats even possible in this life LOL.  Let me show you how green Oregon truly is:
                               

Gorgous right?  I literally forgot the visual image of my words when I told everybody just how green that state is.  We flew in and it was surreal.  The air was amazingly fresh.  God, how I missed that. But I know that I would come to hate that state as soon as winter hit. Lol rain rain go away!!

Then came the visiting of friends and family. May I mention something a little immature: Although we all have our own lifes and values; for a day it'd be nice for people to just SHUT UP and let loose. Stop over thinking and for the life of me...please just stop thinking about themselves for a day?  Okay, now that is said. the visiting was GREAT. I was so happy to see my family and hubby's. Meeting the new babies that we missed out on.  More pics please!!!

Me and my best friends daughter aka my beautiful niece!! She is now 7 months old. 

Hubby and his baby cousin who he just met and is now a year old and the cutest thing EVER!!

Then there was my baby brother whom I havent seen since he was about 2 months old and is now a year old. You miss so much with family when you move. Wish I would've taken a ton more pictures but silly me forgot our camera. Lol Although I dont want to miss anymore growth of people and their children..thier lifes. I gotta grow mine as well. It was really nice seeing family and friends. Although NOTHING has really changed. Not even a little bit besides the kiddos growing up.  I did. It was weird being home again. Things were the exact same but it didn't feel the same. I couldn't see myself living in my hometown. Or my hubby's hometown. Ever. But with that being said i did miss everyone and it was a great visit. 

I dont know to much about the working of things right now. I just want to finish up my goals and pray for my hubby's safe return and my sanity. lol. my emotions are taking a toll on me already and he isn't even gone yet. So I better get off this computer and love on him. 

TTFN<3 

                                                                                                                             

Catch up.

So life has been busy like no other.  I quit my YMCA job to work as a nanny. Considering Hubby is leaving next month. The army changed the date. So instead of september he's leaving in August.  All in all, the nanny job is more personal, less stressful, and is helping a lot with finances and such.  We'll be going home to Oregon at the end of this month...yaaaaay! Haha.  Then I will be moving back home at least a month or so after he deploys.  That little fact is making my stomach turn.  Why must he go?  His orders read "should not exceed 455 days" so possibly 15 months??  This deployment is ALREADY an inconvience.  I would love to keep my husband if you dont mind.  But ey,  the contract and the chioce is on him/us so who can complain?  Being without him and moving back home right when I get comfy here is starting up my anxiety. Why do I feel this way? Its home after all. Where I lived for 18 years of my life. Where my friends and family are. Where my roots will always be. So why the fear of adjustment?....ahhh thats what it is after all. Fear of re adjusting right after I just got adjusted here then having to move back when he gets back. More moving and readjusting. Ugh I hope I can handle it mentally. Ha.

I'm gonna miss my husband. A lot. Like I'm gonna be aching when he leaves for days.  *sigh*  not looking forward to the emotional stress of it all. Not to mention all the things we STILL have to do here before he leaves. MAKE THE TIME STOP!!!!!!!

Well heres some pictures anyways.  I'll write more, I promise. Hehe

Being dorks. As always <3

And heres My Busterrr

Well, TTFN =P

Pause!!

I wish time would just stop.  Just for a tiny bit.  Let my husband come home, then stop the clock. Ha.

But we all know that is wishful thinking on my part. But he is coming home in a little over a week! I'm excited.  A little disapointed that i wasn't able to get our finances situated and now I gotta stress over trying to come home for his leave time. But hey..."everything will be okay in the end, if its not okay, its not the end."

I try to live by that as much as possible. My job is going pretty good. It adds a little more stress, but whatever.  I enjoy it. I work with kiddos.  Which is always interesting! Lol I've been working there for a little over a month now so I got the hang of things.

Annnnd I died my hair.  Haha, I was so sick of my roots. Gross. Lol so I touched them up and I'm very pleased.

So there it is!!

Welp, I gotta go back to counting down the days that the hubby comes home and not stress. TTFN=)

Oh boy....

He's been gone for almost a month.  I've been trying to keep myself busy and my stress level down.  Not as easy as it looks folks! Who would've guessed that being an adult, married and throwing in the military makes your head spin.  Boy oh boy...

I'm excited for him to come home.  Really, I miss my partner. I cant whine and brainstorm without him! Lol.
Everything has me stressed out lately.  Everything. And its even getting him stressed.  Which I cant have.
I have tons of pictures from April to now.  But I got so much on my mind and so much to do around the house that its not even funny.

TTFN =)